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...the worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them but knowing you can't have them and will never see them again.

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the day when I stop loving you is the day when I close my eyes forever !

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something hurt more than missing you, is knowing you speak to another girl in the same speak way how you usually used to speak with me.♥

dear diary, smlem ak telfon dia. dia angkat! wah, senengnya. sangkin snengnya ak nga bs ngmong. trus ak coba tuk tenang n coba ngmong. ak ud ngmong brkali", tp nga dia jwab. trus ak buka lagu smbil ak nnyi buad dia. lagu itu sesuai bnged sm kisah ak sm dia. dia mute tlfonnya. ak nga bs dnger suara dia tp dia bsa. brkali" ak ngmg mntak maav. ak jga nga tw ap dia ad dngerin ak ato nga. hancur de. nga ad harapan lgy ak rasa. trus ak coba tlfon tmen dia. tmen dia blg dia nga mgkin buad ak kek gne klu dia syg ak. ak brusaha yakinin tmen na klu dia emg syg ak. tp nga bs. tmen na cm blg klu ud kek gne, nga tw lg loh harus gimna. emg sih baru dua hari kek gne, tp rasa na itu udh 2 thun. OMG! klu emg ak harus brenti buad mntak maav sm dia, tunjukin ak pertanda diary! ):

bullshittt!

envy people !

someone has made me angry today! his or her sucks mouth like a crazy duck that lost it wings.
do u want to know why? first, this people message me with unknown number on my phone to ask my friend mobile number. then I reply her or him "who is this? can't u ask her yourself" ? then soon this people says " galak banget! tidak layak jadi model! bla bla n bla bla bla" then I reply again " oh, gtu?" says he or she "dasar! model apa lu? foto dgn make up norak pun d taroh d fs" then I answer "awas ajaa klu gwe twu loe sypa!". she says again "pande ngancam ajaa kw. ngpaen tkut sm model norak kek km". last reply by patient wise "ak mles ladenin org ga pny manner kek km. bye". haha. such a envy people ! oops! someone(love) call me (: see eu again! mwah.

ud lma yaa ak ini ga ng'post. haha. sibuk ini itu. tak menentu lah. wkakakak. here is photo" lomba ku yg ga sempet ak upload kmren en photo" vacationku. hhe (:

lately post ):

i am sorry for all. so long neva post anything. its because of my activity. too full. and now i am in bali. haha. vacation wif my cousins. just trying to refreshing. forget all problem n job in medan for a while. haha. when i arrive hum, i will upload some photo during my competition last week. phew ): and the problems are i am disturb by some envy people. but i always hear my besties wishes .. "whatever that happened, just walk it away wif smile"(: enough for this time post o .. see yaa?

request by someone

here I will upload some of my new photo. edited by Vanessa*
heyhey. stop having fun for a while.
boring exam is coming soon, gud luck for all. phew~
its 11 already. i must go bed.
i have a gladiresik tmorrow. its for sunday's fshion show competition.
muaaaah (: byebye.

inspiration

This Model display wedding dresses in the exhibition of wedding ceremonies and wedding dresses in Helsinki, capital of Finland, Jan., 15, 2005. Besides various kinds of wedding dresses, articles for weddings have also been exhibited.

am I such a naughty student ?

T.T I have been disturb by my phone ring tone during my relax time. ohhh, its my mandarin teacher .. i don't know what can I say if I answer her call. I just go home from someplace boring which was full of book, education and bla bla bla. then I decided to message her and tell her that i am stress enough for today. let we practice it again tomorrow. hahaha. am I such a naughty student ? :bb

nothing to do

i spend my time with messaging at class today. nothing to do.
exam coming soon and i think nobody care. hahaha.
i am busy for chatting with my modelling teacher, talking about modelling competition which will be on 24May.
glamour jeans for the dress code and a lil bit gold for eyeshadow makeup. i'm trying to mix and mix && i hope i could win again at this competition.
badnews,my teacher punish me because of my bad behavior,gossips during lesson.
nine now. i am sleepy. see yaaaa (:

badmood

today is the first day I log in this blog. i am new here. hahaha.
all walk away so fast. step by step. time by time. all change ! that is what we call nothing endless here (:
someone make my mood going bad today. some words for her. are you my big fans? always gossip about model and photographer. simple answer, jadi kalo model dandan ngaa menor apa? dandan pengemis lah?
i am sorry for this time post. bad post because my mood.